Thanks to my roommate, lately I have been taking walks that last about an hour and happen daily. At first I only agreed to these walks because I knew they would be good exercise and summer is coming up fast which means beach weather and bathing suits. However, yesterday I went on a walk by myself and half way through I realized my headphones and music were distracting me from what was going on around me and even what was going on in my own head. I removed the headphones and began to let my thoughts travel down the path of beauty, then love, and finally toward who I am as a person and if that person is who I want to be...
I looked around at the trail I was walking along, on one side I could see fields and animals and on the along the other side was just a plane old road with apartment complexes on the other side of it. We always hear that beauty is in the eye of the beholder and as I walked and looked around I realized that there is beauty all around us. Even in a city I was able to find a moment of solitude and peace under a night sky along a trail surrounded by nature and commotion at the same time. There is beauty in the strangest of places and in every different person. Everyone and everything have some beauty, sometimes you must dig and search but it is there somewhere. I was then lead to thinking about God and his idea of beauty. He made us in His likeness and finds us all to be equally beautiful. Though, this is very true we do not always look for the beauty in others. I will even admit to my vanity and my ability to be judgmental. In every judgmental thought I believe there to be at least a little bit of evil. This evil is unfortunately inevitable. I believe this to be true because God has given us free will and with that comes temptation. Temptation is a test of our ability to restrain from the evil in the world. Sometimes we fail the test and must ask for forgiveness but, sometime through all the muck of life we are able to see the beauty in it and the beauty in others.
The thought of beauty in others led me to my thoughts of vanity and attractiveness. I constantly find myself thinking as a guy passes, wow he cute or no, no not my type. I have always thought that there must be some attraction between a couple to be in love. So often people say that you can't judge a book by its cover but even more often, we do it anyways. If we have this type of judgement how are we supposed to find the person we are meant to be with? Could it be that we are blinded by our vanity? Is that what is truly holding us back from being who we really are and loving those who are not even in our line of sight at the moment? Is vanity what is keeping us from truly loving ourselves? From loving God?
-S
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